THECOLORPURPLEALICEWALKERiiTotheSpirit:WithoutwhoseassistanceNeitherthisbookNorIWouldhavebeenWritten.iiiShowmehowtodolikeyouShowmehowtodoit.?StevieWonderYoubetternotnevertellnobodybutGod.Ifdkillyour.mammy.第1页共195页wwen8848/原版英语阅读网DearGod,Iamfourteenyearsold.I-aaIhavealwaysbeenagoodgirl.Maybeyoucangivemeasignlettingmeknowwhatishappeningtome.LastspringafterlittleLuciouscomeIheardthemfussing.Hewaspullingonherarm.ShesayIttoosoon,Fonso,Iain'twell.Finallyheleaveheralone.Aweekgoby,hepullingonherarmagain.ShesayNaw,Iain'tgonna.Can'tyouseeI'malreadyhalfdead,anallofthesechildren.ShewenttovisithersisterdoctoroverMacon.Leftmetoseeaftertheothers.Heneverhadakinewordtosayto.me.JustsayYougonnadowhatyourmammywouldn't.Firstheputhisthingupgainstmyhipandsortofwiggleitaround.Thenhegrabholdmytitties.Thenhepushhisthinginsidemypussy.Whenthathurt,Icry.Hestarttochokeme,sayingYoubettershutupandgitusedtoit.ButIdon'tnevergitusedtoit.AndnowIfeelssickeverytimeIbetheonetocook.Mymamashefussatmeanlookatme.Shehappy,causehegoodtohernoButtoosicktolastlong.Mymamadead.Shediescreamingandcussing.Shescreamatme.Shecussatme.I'mbig.Ican'tmovefastenough.BytimeIgitbackfromthewell,thewaterbewarm.BytimeIgitthetrayreadythefoodbecold.BytimeIgitallthechildrenreadyforschoolitbedinnertime.Hedon'tsaynothing.Hesettherebythebedholdingherhandancryin,talkingboutdon'tleaveme,don'tgo.SheastmeboutthefirstoneWhoseitis?IsayGod's.Idon'tknownoothermanorwhatelsetosay.WhenIstarttohurtandthenmystomachstartmovingandthenthatlittlebabycomeoutmypussychewingonitfistyoucouldhaveknockmeoverwithafeather.Don'tnobodycomeseeus.Shegotsickeransicker.FinallysheastWhereitis?第2页共195页wwen8848/原版英语阅读网IsayGodtookit.Hetookit.HetookitwhileIwassleeping.Kiltitoutthereinthewoods.Killthisonetoo,ifhecan.Heactlikehecan*tstandmenomore.SayI'mevilanalwaysuptonogood.Hetookmyotherlittlebaby,aboythistime.ButIdon'tthinkhekiltit.IthinkhesoldittoamananhiswifeoverMonticello.Igotbreastsfullofmilkrunningdownmyself.HesayWhydon'tyoulookdecent?Putonsomething.ButwhatI'msposedtoputon?Idon'thavenothing.Ikeephopinghefinesomebodytomarry.Iseehimlookingatmylittlesister.Shescared.ButIsayI'lltakecareofyou.WithGodhelp.HecomehomewithagirlfromroundGray.Shebemyagebuttheymarried.Hebeonherallthetime.Shewalkroundlikeshedon'tknowwhathither.Ithinkshethoughtshelovehim.Buthegotsomanyofus.Allneedingsomethin.MylittlesisterNettieisgotaboyfriendinthesameshapealmostasPa.Hiswifedied.Shewaskiltbyherboyfriendcominghomefromchurch.Hegotonlythreechildrenthough.HeseenNettieinchurchandnoweverySundayeveningherecomeMr.???.ItellNettietokeepatherbooks.Itbemorethenanotiontakingcareofchildrenain'tevenyourn.AndlookwhathappentoMa.HebeatmetodaycausehesayIwinkedataboyinchurch.ImayhavegotsomethininmyeyebutIdidn'twink.Idon'tevenlookatmens.That'sthetruth.Ilookatwomen,tho,causeI'mnotscaredofthem.MaybecausemymamacussmeyouthinkIkeptmadather.ButIain't.Ifeltsorryformama.Tryingtobelievebisstorykilther.SometimehestillbelookingatNettie,butIalwaysgitinhislight.NowItellhertomarryMr.??,?Idon'ttellherwhy.第3页共195页wwen8848/原版英语阅读网IsayMarryhim,Nettie,antrytohaveonegoodyearoutyourlife.Afterthat,Iknowshebebig.Butme,neveragain.Agirlatchurchsayyougitbigifyoubleedeverymonth.Idon'tbleednomore.Mr.???finallycomerightoutanastforNettiehandinmarriage.ButHewon'tlethergo.Hesayshetooyoung,noexperience.SayMr.?:??gottoomany...