EVENIFSOMETIMESLOVE-LIKEFEELINGSARISEINMYHEART,IMMEDIATELYTHENEXTMOMENTISTARTFEELING'THISISNOTLOVE,THISISNOTLOVEATALL:ITISALLMYHIDDENCRAVINGSFORSEXANDALLTHAT'.Sowhatiswronginit?Lovehastoariseoutoflust.Ifyouavoidlust,youwillbeavoidingthewholepossibilityofloveitself.Loveisnotlust,true;butloveisnotwithoutlust--thattooistrue.Loveishigherthanlust,yes,butifyoudestroylustcompletely,youdestroytheverypossibilityoftheflowerarisingoutofthemud.Loveisthelotus,lustisthemudthelotusarisesoutof.Rememberit;otherwiseyouwillneverattaintolove.Atthemost,youcanpretendthatyouhavetranscendedlust.Becausewithoutlove,nobodycantranscendlust;youcanrepressit.Repressed,itbecomesmorepoisonous.Itspreadsintoyourwholesystem,itbecomestoxic,itdestroysyou.Lusttransformedintolovegivesyouaglow,aradiance.Youstartfeelinglight,asifyoucanfly.Youstartgainingwings.Withlustrepressedyoubecomeheavy,asifyouarecarryingaweight,asifabigrockishangingaroundyourneck.Withlustrepressed,youloseallopportunitiestoflyinthesky.Withlusttransformedintolove,youhavepassedthetestofexistence.Youhavebeengivenarawmaterialtowork,tobecreative.Lustisrawmaterial.Ihaveheard....BerkowitzandMichaelson,whowerenotonlybusinesspartnersbutlife-longfriends,madeapact:thatwhicheveronediedfirstwouldcomebackandtelltheotherwhatitwaslikeinheaven.Sixmonthslater,Berkowitzdied.Hewasaverymoralman,almostsaint-like,apuritanwhohadneverdoneanythingwrong,whohadalwaysremainedafraidoflustandsex.AndMichaelsonwaitedforhisdeardepartedholyfriendtoshowsomesignthathehadreturnedtoearth.MichaelsonpassedthetimeimpatientlyhopingforandeagerlyawaitingamessagefromBerkowitz.Thenoneyearafterthedayofhisdeath,BerkowitzspoketoMichaelson.Itwaslateatnight;Michaelsonwasinbed."Michaelson,Michaelson,"echoedthevoice."Isthatyou,Berkowitz?""Yes.""Whatisitlikewhereyouare?""Wehavebreakfastandthenwemakelove,thenweeatlunchandwemakelove,wehavedinnerandthenwemakelove.""Isthatwhatheavenislike?"askedMichaelson."Whosaidanythingaboutheaven?"saidBerkowitz."IaminWisconsin,andIamabull."Remember,thishappenstopeoplewhorepresssex.Nothingelsecanhappenbecausethatwholeenergyrepressedbecomesaloadandpullsyoudown.Youmovetowardslowerstagesofbeing.Iflovearisesoutoflust,youstartrisingtowardshigherbeing.Soremember,whatyouwanttobecome--aBuddhaorabull--dependsonyou.IfyouwanttobecomeaBuddha,thendon'tbeafraidofsex.Moveintoit,knowitwell,becomemoreandmorealertaboutit.Becareful;itistremendouslyvaluableenergy.Makeitameditationandtransformit,byandby,intolove.Itisrawmaterial,likearawdiamond:youhavetocutit,polishit;thenitbecomesoftremendousvalue.Ifsomebodygivesyouanunpolished,raw,uncutdiamond,youmaynotevenrecognizethatitisadiamond.EventheKohinoorinitsrawstateisworthless.LustisaKohinoor:ithastobepolished,ithastobeunderstood.Thequestionerseemstobeafraidandantagonistic:"Itisallmyhiddencravingsforsexandallthat."Thereisacondemnationinit.Nothingiswrong;manisasexualanimal.That'showweare.That'sthewaylifemeansustobe.That'showwehavefoundourselveshere.Gointoit.Withoutgoing,youwillneverbeabletotransformit.I'mnotspeakingformereindulgence.I'msayingmoveintoitwithdeepmeditativeenergytounderstandwhatitis.Itmustbesomethingtremendouslyvaluablebecauseyouhavecomeoutofit,becausethewholeexistenceenjoysit,becausethewholeexistenceissexual.SexisthewayGodhaschosentobeintheworld,notwithstandingwhatChristiansgoonsaying--thatJesuswasbornoutofavirginwoman--allfo...